October Recap

October has been a rollercoaster in everyway.

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Last month, I feel as if I hadn’t much time to catch a breath, but that’s also just me being dramatic. I usually go through my camera roll to refresh my memory of what moments occurred throughout the previous month, but in October, I barely had taken much to spark any memory. Each day, though, I feel as if there had always been something going on. Whether it be a birthday, something at work, writing, planning, researching; life just keeps going and it’s going fast. It’s insane to think that we are on the brink of 2021.

October 2021 Recap:

• Unfortunately, I had to say goodbye to my beloved foliage, Vern. One morning, he was looking a bit sad and limp, so I gave him some water. As the day went on, I came back to check on him and his leaves were draping even lower and came off with a simple touch. It was only after I decided it was time to let go that my sister told me that plants are able to come back to life. Sorry I didn’t give you another chance at life, Vern. I’m just thankful to have cared for him as long as I could and yearned for.

Photo by Author — “R.I.P. Vern”

• I’ve been trying to branch out on Trader Joe’s produce; so far, though, I’ve only fallen obsessed with these new items; will possibly only have a Trader Joe’s Favorites coming soon.
• My family and I visited Anaheim once again this year for Disneyland. The drive was supposed to be roughly five hours at the most, but turned into a agonizing seven due to three car crashes. We stayed at the Marriott and was the most beautiful hotel I’ve ever seen! It also had a cute little farmer’s market and Starbucks inside. At Disneyland, even after being shoved by a grown man twice my size so he could get on Space Mountain before me, it was still a great trip!
• In comparison to August-September, I feel much lighter mentally and emotionally. Clearing my head of trivialities out of my control was definitely a long over due aspect I needed to incorporate in my daily life. Channeling my focus and attention on aspects in my life that actually matter to me has created a greater impact in various areas of my life as well. Some days I still have to work at it, or even a littler harder than others, but I can confidently say I feel hopeful only in the best way and towards the best things.

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• A while ago, I challenged myself to quit cold turkey on each and every bad habit I acquired. It can be summed up into a few words: after eight days, I fell into the worst habit of all, drinking; seven months of sobriety gone. I realized I went the wrong way with these bad habits of mine in forcing myself to let go creating more temptation than ever to fall back into them. In October, instead, I challenged myself to change these bad habits into preferable ones for three weeks (minimum.) After about [roughly] a week, I noticed these habits becoming more authentically habitual in a way that I didn’t even have to remind myself or “make myself” do them. 10/10 recommend.
• One of the better habits I wanted to incorporate daily was meditation. For a while, I’d meditate 1–2 times a day, but soon, fell off the wagon and would merely do it sparingly. It’s been about [almost] a month since I’ve been doing it daily again; another reason I believe for my lighter and cleanliness in mentality.
• I say this every month, but I’ve been planning even deeper for my life abroad happening in four months now!!! I’ve been in contact with a few people overseas so I can be prepared as much I can. I have also exchanged my currency the other day. Moments as such definitely help reality settle in. Looking into more travel books to read up on since I have already finished a few that’ve helped greatly!
• Speaking of reading, after a month away from psychology and self-help, I have decided I am well enough now to dive right back in. I know that this time I will not allow myself to lose myself by creating a gap between my sentiments. Actually have a new book I ordered being delivered today! Review and summary to come.
• I also decided with psychology to take classes again. I started last week and am more than excited to learn more about the mind! I truly believe that I was a scientist in another life.

Out of all the thirty-one days in October, yesterday was one of the few that was lacking energy in all ways. I felt a bit run down and heavier than I have any other day. After painting pumpkins, having a bonfire, and getting a good nights rest, I feel recharged and ready to take on whatever November throws my way!