Life Updates…IV??
Hello, everyone & happy Monday. I hope you’re all doing well & you had a good week! I’ve tried writing this intro. about 3 times now, & it’s been messy & weird each time. My brain is fuzzy right now, which I will get into, so with this boring intro., I introduce: Another Life Update That Nobody Asked For Pt. IV (I think…not sure what number of update this is, but I’m just going to stick with IV.)
• Recently, the only time I barely have anything going on is the weekends or at least one of the weekend days. I never thought I’d say this, but that alone makes me dread weekends. Sitting around struggling to find something to do isn’t at the top of my favorites list. Last Saturday, I decided to embrace my boredom instead of fighting it; allowing it to consume me, as I did. Not to be dramatic, but it was the most fun weekend I’ve had in a while. I made a little set-up out back for a “stay-cation;” put on a floral shirt & bikini, & just existed with iced tea & a book in the sun. Definitely recommend. Whenever I drink tea, I drink it from the can in comes in, but I decided to change it up & poured it into one of my mason jar cups; I don’t know why but seeing my tea in my cup made me so happy I can’t explain it. It’s the little things. When I came back inside, things to do actually came to me instead of me trying to search for them. In the end, I remembered Mark Manson: “The closer you walk towards the house, the further it becomes.” Sometimes letting go & allowing the universe to come to you is best.
• I watched this movie, Sunburn; an Irish film. I’d like to say that I’ve come to love Irish films, but the truth is that I actually love Irish actors named Cillian Murphy. I’ve only seen probably less than a handful of Irish films, all of which had Cillian in them, so I was bound to like them. I mean, don’t get me wrong, the storylines & dialogue were great too, but I feel like I need to watch more Irish films without Cillian to have a coherent & fair opinion on Irish films. Nonetheless, Sunburn was a cute & heartwarming movie, also recommend!
• I have been slowly getting necessities for travel, I also found the perfect suitcase! I don’t think it has ever felt real until now, even then, it still feels like it’s not completely real. I don’t think it will completely settle in until I’m at the airport. I have been trying to get my passport photo “right” for the past 2 weeks now…Is it just me, or does getting a passport stress everyone out? I don’t know, but I can’t wait to get it all sorted out, getting a passport is putting too much weight in my head!
• I am obsessed with peaches. I’ve been in love with them since last Summer, but forgot about them when they went out of season. It’s safe to say that they are at the top of my grocery list every week now that they are back in season. They were on sale the other day & let me tell you…you know you reached adulthood when you get excited over fruit prices. In a weird way, though, I have a fear regarding peaches…when I was little, we went to the lake & I sat on the back of my dad’s truck with my mom eating a peach. I don’t remember who bit into it first, but when we did, there was a worm in it; this memory is stored vividly in my mind & I always fear that I will bite into a peach & half of a worm will be in the peach & the other half in my mouth…I usually cut up my peach instead of biting into it because of this. Normal transition here, but apricots…let’s talk about them. I’ve been wanting to try them, but didn’t decide to until I saw them in a cute basket at the Farmer’s Market; to be honest, I wanted the basket more than anything. It’s also safe to say that I am more of a peach kind of girl than apricots. I put them in a bowl & transferred my peaches to the cute basket (:
• After 2 months of outlining, I now have a 2nd script ready to be written that I am excited for & proud of…finally! My 1st script only took 2 weeks to outline…but this next one definitely has a more complex concept, so eventually, I forgave myself. So far, so good in writing the actual script, but I often forget that the rough draft is supposed to be rough. I put too much pressure on myself for it to be something great the 1st time around…been trying to work on that.
• I am going to be in California in a few weeks. I am…so very excited to be on the beach again! I’m going to boogie board my life away! Figuratively speaking of course, but if I’m being honest, I’m a terrible swimmer (my dog swims betters than me) & I’ve probably almost drowned every time I have boarded. Surfboarding doesn’t look too promising in being in my future any time soon. I might also be going to Las Vegas within the next couple months for my sister’s wedding, been debating if I want to make these 2 trips my 1st couple posts in the “travel” category of my blog…have some ideas with that.
• What I’ve been listening to lately: Jazz; Joey Pecoraro & Proleter have been my favorite! They’re mainly instrumental, but very soothing & makes for good primes! I had a mini panic attack the other day, which I haven’t had in a very long time, so thank you for reminding me what that felt like, brain; very appreciated…When it happened, I was listening to music & the song that played was a little chaotic, & I felt like I was going to explode. I quickly changed the station to Joey Pecoraro & my anxiety waned. Other than Jazz, I’ve also been listening to The Kooks. I have a tendency to be late into discovering good music & bands…like over a decade late.
• I’ve been cooking a lot more recently & none have disappointed. It made me realize that I haven’t made a “Healthy Lunch Options For Picky Eaters”…Stay tuned for that, trust me, the recipes are so good & easy to make!
• I’ve been wanting to branch out on hobby interests, such as jiu jitsu & learning the ukelele, but I really am booked in my planner & mentally week after week. Even when I give myself time to catch my breath, my mind just goes on & on. I always need a pen & paper close by just in case something important comes to mind; a curse & a gift. But there is just so much to be written & created, it would be a crime to not bring them to life! Since then, jiu jitsu & the ukelele will be on hold until further notice.
• With the small amount of time I do have to take a step back from the chaos, I’ve been trying to strengthen my foreign languages again since they will be very useful here soon. My French isn’t too bad, but mainly because I practiced day & night when I 1st started for several months. My Swedish is very rustic. I only know the very basics like “hi” & “bye,” along with random sentences like “the boy is eating an apple & drinks water.”
• Remember when I said that my life is a contradiction? & I said that I don’t like to gorge myself in a rabbit hole of T.V. shows? Well, I can sit through movies & 2 hours of documentaries. Go figure. I watched this documentary on the psychology of the criminal mind, it was kind of cheesy, but I learned a few things… I learned that oftentimes, a serial killer has a slow heart rate. Having a slow heart rate makes life seem dull to these individuals & killing gives them that “feel good” feeling of excitement that they struggle to find in regular daily activities…Here’s something: I have a slow heart rate & I get bored very easily. It was cool to understand why I get bored easy, but learning that I have a trait similar to serial killers was unsettling. To be clear & for the record, I will never want to kill someone. I don’t care how bored I get! My slow heart rate will not win! I also can’t even stomach the word “blood” (I call it “sauce”), so I think I am safe from becoming a serial killer.
• Most importantly…I am finally fully vaccinated as of yesterday! Which is why my brain is a bit fuzzy, I really feel like I’m not a real person right now & feel sluggish. If you are considering the vaccine, or are due for your 2nd dose, this is my experience: Firstly, I got the Pfizer. The 1st dose, I had no issues except a mildly sore arm for 1 day. The 2nd dose, I actually felt the needle, which I wasn’t expecting so that was cool…I woke up today with a headache close to the feeling of a knife in my brain; it has waned since taking Advil & drinking a 3rd cup of coffee. I also feel as though I’ve been punched in the arm by a professional fighter, & feel a little fuzzy minded. Truth be told, it’s different for everyone, but it’s definitely worth persevering through!
Thank you for reading my messily written life updates, I hope you have a great weekend & you are taking care of yourself! I’m going to go make a smoothie bowl now. TTYL❤
